Slump?

First run today in a week. It was fine.

3.11 miles
35:24 (11:22/mile)

That is a 5K PR for me by a minute, so that's cool.

Now the slump part of the post. I am having what the French might refer to as a crise de confiance. I am increasingly aware that 13.1 miles is far. Really far. And after sickness and lots of stress at school, as well as the recent cold weather which makes me SO not want to run in the dark and cold (can't run during the day often), I bagged my midweek 30 minute runs two weeks in a row. All of them. So I am putting all the pressure on my weekend run. This is dysfunctional, and I know it-I am, in essence, telling myself I can't do it (due to weather, illness, stress, darkness, whatever), not doing it, and as a result, I am basically sabotaging my April 29 HM. Maybe I've bit off more than I can chew. I am actually entertaining the thought of convincing my SIL (an 8 minute miler who is parallel training for this HM with me, but we don't run together due to schedules and, well, I'd drag her way the heck down) to find a 3rd person and do a marathon relay (with legs of 5 and 8 miles, both of which I know I could do). But I feel like that would be a cop out. Ugh.

My current longest run to date is 8.3 miles on 1/13, a month ago. I stuck with R9/W1 the whole way on that, and I was tired and sore after, but I made it. That was back when winter here in Jersey was 54, the good old days.

I think I will stick by this HM lunacy. I will force myself on the dreadmill if I must (and with snow in the forecast this week, I suspect I must). But I have hit a motivational slump, that I will have to work through. I can't survive a HM on one weekend run a week.